I’m not going to sugarcoat it (ha ha – no pun intended) but I’m feeling a bit melancholy on this beautiful Easter Sunday. I’m used to large family celebrations, or at least ones on a smaller scale. I equate it to Thanksgiving where there is always way too much food (and too much wine). I typically do a large Easter egg hunt with hundreds of plastic candy filled eggs for some of the little kids of my friends since my 16 year old is surely not into that although she always set up the hunt.
This year it is only the three of us. Me, my hubby and daughter. Hubby’s mom bailed bc she is doing Easter with hubby’s cousin later today and has things to do. My brother is sick and can’t make it. We were invited to a large Easter lunch later today but hubby has to work and I am driving daughter three hours (each way) to meet her dad and grandma. And they will continue another three hours to their home so she can spend the week there.
This isn’t so much about the wine, though when I get into pity party mode the thought creeps in. It’s more about missing family traditions of large talkative celebrations. I know in every part of me that I need to giddy up and put my big girl panties on and enjoy the quiet family gathering. But I guess I just needed to verbalize that deep down inside I’m sad. I miss my mom who passed away almost four years ago. She used to invite anyone and everyone who had nowhere to go, a tradition i usually follow. I miss my sister and her family who live in another state.
This year is the three of us and I can promise that I will make the most of every moment. And when I come home from the long drive I think I will have a free hour to chill and read or whatever I want to do before hubby gets homeI. hate sounding so negative but I actually feel way better expressing this. So happy (hoppy) Easter and hope you all have an amazing day!!!
P.S. please don’t think I’m not grateful for all that I DO have. I’m just really having a hard time with the quiet when I am used to chaos. When it’s all said and done I’m sure I will find many positives and will absolutely not entertain the thought of drinking. Even if the beverage store delivers 50 free cases of wine to my house today I will not drink. And of course there are the puppies and kitties to think about…right Lilly and Belle? No way no how!!!