I guess this is actually a good thing…but it is UBER hard for me to not spend hours every day READING all of your amazing blogs and COMMENTING that I totally relate and RELISHING in the comments on my blog…BUT…I’m keeping super busy and I can’t let myself get into a state of overwhelmedness.
My daily routine hasn’t changed much. Up at 5 AM. Gym class at 5:30 AM. Spiritual/recovery reading from about 6:45 AM until 7:15 AM – plus I started working the steps for AA. Email check for work/freshen up for 1/2 hour. AA meeting from 8 AM to 9 AM. WORK (and I mean work HARD) from 9 AM to 6 PM. Cook a healthy dinner. Watch relatively mindless TV and enjoy quiet time with my family. Read my “real” book from about 10 PM to 11 PM. SLEEP. Lather, rinse, repeat.
Mix in a few doctor’s appts (routine checkups), chiropractor appts, trips to the tag office and/or UPS Store (about to go through refinancing again and there is TONS of paperwork to deal with) and my week is shot.
I “cheated” a bit and copy/pasted some of my check in emails to Belle. A quick email is super manageable for me, and if any of you would like to become “email buddies”, I may be better at that to connect on a more individual level. I desperately hope to work towards balance so that I do have more time to read and comment on blogs because I ENJOY that. At this point, I guess it feels like a luxury and I will simply have to work towards that reward 🙂
For now…here is a brief synopsis of my week so far. Happy Day to everyone!
Thursday, April 4th:
Morning check in 🙂 SLAMMED with work. Found myself hoping/praying for more hours in the day. I totally miss blogging – but by the time I have done my morning spiritua/recovery reading, then gone to a meeting, it is just time to put on my big girl panties and get cracking. I ended up having to clean up someone’s mess on a project that was poorly mis-managed (on her end). I am disgruntled and frustrated – but also trying to see it as a time to shine and show what I’m made of.
I MISS MY BLOG! I MISS VISITING OTHER BLOGS. Life just seems so full of my real world stuff that it becomes hard to do a “quick check in” because there are so many folks I like to check in with. I think I’m gonna copy/paste this again (what a slacker I feel like – but I’m going to revisit that thought and call it effiiciency).
To all my blog peeps…I think about you every day. I try to read new posts/comments on the “reader” function of my phone. I WANT TO comment and tell you how much you all mean to me…and will do my absolute best to carve out a good hour to do that – either later today or tomorrow. But for now, real life work stuff beckons, so gotta hop to it 🙂
Wednesday, April 3rd
Sorry…not sure where I stand on the 100 Day Challenge as I have been uber focused on my 30 day chip, which I am slated to receive on Monday. My days have been calmer and I am feeling more patient lately. Trying to do more turning things over to my Higher Power, and using my time well to focus on all aspects of my sobriety. First and foremost of course is not drinking. My 5:30 AM classes at the gym are getting my days off to a great start. Spiritual/recovery reading while I have coffee – can’t wait until it is a bit warmer to enjoy our balcony more. Meetings at 8 AM, and then the start of the work day. Cooking healthy dinners. Light TV with my hubby until he falls asleep and then “regular” reading for myself. Saw the most beautiful sunrise this morning…God is good and *I* am good 🙂
Tuesday, April 2nd
Not quite sure of where my day went, but finally checking in!
I’m excited because I ordered two books (and got them) that are related to the 12 Steps, but are geared towards WOMEN. I am already having a much better understanding of the first step – because as you know – I had a real problem with the word powerless. My focus is now to start working the steps – using those 2 books (one is a workbook) along with the “traditional” copy of the AA literature.
Sometimes I get a little turned off by AA’ers who continue to “force feed” their way. I guess I’m “supposed” to have a sponsor to work the steps with, but why can’t I try to do the steps on my own, with continued focus on going to meetings, blogging, being accountable, using others in the group for support, etc?
The leader today said something to the effect that if you are not working the steps and doing it WITH a sponsor, then he won’t be surprised if he sees you drinking in a year. Nice, huh?
Anyways, I won’t let him pee on my day…It’s close to quitting time for work, and I’ll make a quick run to the grocery store for something to grill for dinner. Think I’ll sautee some mushrooms again since those are just SO yummy.