I came home from my cooking class to find my teenage daughter in pain – LOTS of pain. The kind where when I asked her to squeeze my hand to indicate the level, she about took my hand off. A neighbor friend did some preliminary “poking and prodding” and recommended that we visit the ER for possible appendicitis. Instead of going to the nearby ER, we opted to go to one farther away as just in case they needed to do any kind of surgery, we would have had to go to the children’s hospital anyways…not to mention make the co-pay twice.
Got there at 10 PM and almost 7 hours later, after IVs, bloodwork, ultrasound etc, we arrived home. Home with a daughter whose pain level is down to 1 from 9, and who remains in good spirits. Watching her on morphine medication turned into quite a comedy show – it was almost a little scary – like that would be as if she were drunk – making friends with a surgical glove and just being silly/goofy in general. The fact that her pain was taken away so quickly and that all ends well (ovarian cysts were also ruled out as well as some other possibilities – may have simply been complications with her cycle), I’m just glad that we were “better safe than sorry.”
As Belle advised, I have given myself extra self-care today. We got home close to 6 AM, so I sent an email to my bosses and took the morning off. I’m working now, but taking it at a slower speed than usual. Dinner tonight will just be take in, and since I missed the gym this morning, I will get on the treadmill, but do more of a brisk walk than a power inclined fast walk – just something to get the muscles moving.
In the grand scheme of things, especially in light of the events in Boston, I am so incredibly grateful for so many things. I am thankful to have professional medical care to take care of my daughter in her time of need, and of course happy that the diagnosis did not include anything scary. I am lucky to have a wonderful husband who was there from start to finish. He usually works at 5:30 AM but is off this week. When I mentioned that it was a good thing he had the time off, he said he would have been there anyways. What an absolute gem. I missed the first AA meeting since I started going, and I was secretly pleased when I got a thoughtful email from one of the members to make sure that everything was okay.
Just all in all, I will use the word gratitude. That was the theme of the AA meeting that Kedzie Rose went to, and it made me so happy to read about her experience in the meeting. I’m thankful to have a sense of calm and serenity. Lucky to have the support that I need and the drive to make it happen. Gratitude – good stuff.